It was the oddest thing, but yesterday I got a surge of energy. I used it to take those ten minutes in a day that I have been denying myself to meditate. It really is the most simple of things but so easy to put at the bottom of the list, even when I know it makes me feel better I still have issues making myself a priority in my day-if that makes sense.
After a frustrating session (you do get rusty on breaks) I did a few things around the house with a feeling of intention for starting and completing tasks. This carried over to communication; texts and emails were answered. Kudra even sent me a email about free online classes for a subject very near to my heart. And then I actually blogged! Holiday cards were addressed and laundry taken care of and in such purposeful way that it wasn’t like I just floated for one task to another.
Later I went to the gym, did my 10k steps on various equipment. I think I even got an endorphin rush.
I finished up the afternoon by “helping” my neighbor Meryl socialize her new (hopefully) puppy by going to a Starbuck’s and pretty much asking people to come pet the puppy while I sipped on a holiday coffee.
And I am wondering what caused the surge. Could it be the meditation to the endorphin rush? Maybe the healthy food? Or maybe it was just the cute puppy above… All I know is it was an odd energy that I haven’t had in a while.
Then this morning I read an entry from one of the blogs I follow (and you should too). Liz mentioned that there was something in the cosmos that began three years ago, Winter 2012 and now it is coming to an end. And while that idea frightens me slightly, I am wondering if it will be a good thing for me.
In Winter of 2012 I was packing up our house and planning to move across country to a place I had never been. We knew for a few months it could happen, but we didn’t want to tell anyone until it was a sure thing. I think that is where my habit of introversion took root.
After the move and some of the company we kept or rather did not keep, I felt my little shy, obedient side coming out and ruling more of my life. It has been struggle to find my voice again and my sass, but through some situations and people in the last year I have been able to get it back. But really the last two months I have been feeling quite different.
I noticed I didn’t blog as much the last three years, which sucks because so many new things happened that I really did not record properly and I worry that I have lost those initial thoughts forever. I’m not going to make any big promises of blogging, but I want you to know the intention is there.
So I am hoping that this odd energy is maybe just a little Retro-Melly coming out to take a look around.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone and enjoy the New Moon tonight.